need. sleep.

Please Lord, let my child sleep through the night.

The other night when we were up with a crying child at 3:30 a.m. I decided no biological children for us. I’m just too selfish. I’m being honest here folks. I like my sleep. I function at 1/2 capacity most days and that is with a good 8 hours of sleep. I can’t imagine having to be up every 2 hours to feed a baby. And don’t give me that, “oh, it’s different when it’s your own baby” thing. I’ve been up in the middle of the night with my own child every night the past 3 nights and I’m here to tell you I would much rather be sleeping.

Last night we put the boy in the bed and he had no fever. He was fine all day long. No fever at all. 11:30 he wakes up crying with a fever of 104 again. What the hell? An hour later, a near divorce, Motrin, and Tylenol child was sleeping. Or mostly sleeping. 3:30 he wakes up again. He had rocked himself down to the end of the crib and woke up coughing. He was rocking pretty hard and whacked his head on the side of the crib. Of course the trusty husband was to the rescue at the 3:30 wake up.

And please, don’t send me hate male saying that you’re up with your kid every night. I know I’m lucky to have a child that sleeps through the night. This is why I’m bitching.

All of this is just getting old. I want my child to be better.

6 Comment

  1. NEAL says: Reply

    Prayers for you.

    As the father of an asthmatic, I can’t sleep if ANY of the kids cough at night. When he runs a fever, has trouble breathing or anything I’m on edge … horrible, terrible stressful edge.

  2. Mom says: Reply

    Hang in there kiddo….

  3. Jenny says: Reply

    Oh sing it, sister. And up with is poor sick kid, even worse then just feeding them and going back to bed. I hope you and the buddy feel better soon!

  4. chou2 says: Reply

    OH, Elle, this really sucks – I’m so sorry.

    I get tremendously, horribly, bitchy when I don’t get to sleep. God help me when my kid actually comes home and I have constant sleep deprivation.

    In the meantime, I’m sending good and sleepy thoughts your way. Hang in there. (Nice chart on the previous post, btw!)


  5. Nancy says: Reply


    as you know I’ve been up in the night with both bio and adopted kids, doesn’t matter who they are or why you’re up, being up sucks!!!! I’ll say a few prayers for both sleep and sanity for you and fast healing for the boy.

  6. I agree. What’s wrong with talking about the “perks” of adoption? Older kids = less getting up in the night. (No breastfeeding) Or at least that’s what I’ve convinced myself. Otherwise, I can’t imagine how I’m going to get through a residency with a kid.

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