• The Cancer
  • The front side of fear

    I really am tired of writing posts that seem sad, but I’m trying to share some of the hidden realities of this whole journey.  However, this week has been a bit rough. Monday was fantastic!  It was the first day in weeks that I felt like myself.  I spent the majority of the day in […]

  • The Cancer
  • Hair… it goes

    Sometimes you sit and stare at a screen and wonder where to start. That is me.  I am there. Here goes. Yesterday was my appointment with the oncologist.  It felt like the appointment was so far away while waiting for it.  On Sunday I told myself only a few more days.  I can do a […]

  • The Cancer
  • The cursed expanders

    Every post-mastectomy patient complains, bemoans and generally despises the tissue expanders.  I am in that class of ladies.  The thought of having to leave these cursed things in for a year is enough to throw me into the pit of despair.  I continually remind myself that this is only temporary.  Try telling that to my […]

  • The Cancer
  • 3 weeks post surgery

    Yesterday marked the 3 week mark.  It doesn’t seem like it’s been that long.  I mark my days by how much longer until I have to go to sleep.  I dread sleep, or rather bedtime.  Laying down in my bed used to be one of my favorite things in the world.  Now it is filled […]

  • Gardening 101
  • Gardening Withdrawl

    By my calculations, when all is said and done, it will be three summers that I will be unable to garden.  One reason I was looking forward to the teaching gig was summers off.  I could sit by a pool or toodle around in my garden.  That is proving to not be the case. Think […]

  • The Cancer
  • By the numbers

    When the surgeon called to share the pathology results I was not taking notes.  I also forgot to ask a few questions like staging.  Monday was my post-op follow-up with the breast surgeon so I had the opportunity to talk with her and ask my questions. Overall, she said I’m going good.  I was “reprimanded” […]

  • Snack-a-teria
  • Search for the Perfect Macaron

    First there were cupcakes.  Then there was froyo.  The shaved snow craze hasn’t come to Washington yet, but I assure you it’s on its way.  At least I hope so.  There always seems to be some kind of fad dessert.  Be it mix-in ice cream, cake pops or the must-have cookie, we love our snacky […]

  • The Cancer
  • Check Yourself

    One question I am asked frequently is, “So did they find this on a routine screening?” It is a logical question to ask.  I turned 40 last year.  The guideline is that women should begin receiving yearly mammograms at age 40.  I can’t remember for the life of me why I never scheduled the screening. […]

  • The Cancer
  • Nothing is fair in cancer

    Last night was the first moment I’ve had that I came to the realization that this thing might actually kill me.  Mind you I have no intention of giving up and I am fighting like hell to make sure that doesn’t happen.  However, there comes a moment in every cancer patient’s life where you realize […]