I have come to realize that my life it very dependent on the multitude of vitamins I take each day.? and the sun.? Oh yes, the sun.? We haven’t seen the sun around these parts in more than 30 minute increments in months.? I also haven’t taken my vitamins in about the same amount of time.? I am now beginning to remember why I went to the acupuncturist for the first time back in June 2007.
At this moment I very much dislike myself and much of everything around me.? So much so that I am really trying to figure out if the $15 in my wallet is enough to refinish my kitchen cabinets.
You see, when I get super depressed my first thought is to change something.? In reality I should change something about myself.? Get away from my computer, go for a walk, work in the yard.? Anything.? In my mind I want instant gratification so I want to do physically change something.? Why do you think we paint a room every January?
I’ve run out of rooms to paint so the next possible solution is to work on the kitchen.? I was going to replace the cabinets.? I did the math and figured I didn’t have enough money to do that.? Refinishing the cabinets would be cheaper.? However, somewhere deep down inside I know that this will be more work than I’m willing to put forth.? So there is still a little spark of logical left in me.? Of course, that spark is what drives me to shower every day.
Here is how kitchen redo would play out:
Day 1: Elle goes to mega home improvement store to purchase paint and lacquer stripping materials (our cabinet doors have 1 layer of paint on them and the bases have 1 layer of lacquer and 2 layers of paint).? She then removes all of the dishes from the cabinets, the cabinet doors and tapes up the walls.? *Then it’s dinner time and she’s too exhausted to make dinner.? We either a) go out for dinner, which will cost more money or b) the trusty husband makes dinner and I eat chicken and rice for the second night in a row.
Day 2: Elle opens the garage door only to remember that the garage is packed full of crap and she can’t move.? She then spends the rest of the day cleaning out the garage.? Return to *.
Day 3: At some point during the previous day Elle got distracted by something in the garage and decided to start a new project.? The kitchen cabinets have no doors, there are dishes on every vertical surface? and an untouched bag from mega home improvement store with refinishing supplies.? Day 3 will repeat infinitely.
Now part of me wants to say “oh that won’t happen this time.”? And then my husband reaches through the computer screen and bitch slaps me.
I get it.. I do
That is why I screw up my hair every January, trying to color my way to happiness.
sending you Hugs & Sunshine
I don’t mean to frighten you but you just described your mother. (Oooo eee) If Captain Smarty Pants tells you to focus more then once in a day… well… pity should be bestowed upon you! I understand.
I say take the $15 and go for a manicure :), out for lunch, movie, starbucks… Sounds like we need to plan a “warm” vacation every year in Jan/Feb to rejuvinate and get our viatamin D.
Hang in there, spring is just around the corner!
You’re always welcome to come strip my kitchen cabinets! We’ve only lived in our house 4 years and we keep redoing everything. We did a halfass job the first time around to make the house livable, now we’re going back and doing some things over again. My hubby is blowing a week of vacation to redo half the landscape again. We’re ripping out stuff we did 3 years ago. ARGH!!! Why can’t we ever have a relaxing vacation!!!
uuhhh, babe? Please turn to your left and flick the switch on that light therapy light 🙂 Repeat as necessary (which means, as often as required so that I don’t have to strip cabinets this weekend…) Love you!
I totally feel for ya. Hold on honey!
Maybe you could come down and lay around in the sun? I won’t “slap” you OR have a project for you….;)
See you soon!
I wish I could bottle some Florida sunshine and Fed-Ex it to you.
Remember… If you think it’s to early… it’s already to late!
Honestly, you seem more put together than most of us – you realize how the project would turn out before starting. I’ve started many things never admitting I wouldn’t follow through.
Keep plugging away.
I, like Laurie above, usually take it out on my hair.
I feel for ya.
I also think trusy husband is brave for bitch slapping you ~ yikes!
I’ve said it before, I love your honesty!
This so sounds like me…and I live in Florida. If the sun is not shining it usually takes some outside motivation to keep me on task.