Yesterday marked AC round 3 for me. It was another early morning, but not quite as early as the last. We had to be to SCCA by 8:00 a.m. for labs. We ran a little late, but it turned out fine. I’m always so impressed at how amazing the lab techs are there. I had […]
The Cancer
Letting go of your hair
Sunday on social media it was all about my hair. What you got was snippets of moments throughout the morning. However, I find it rather cathartic to write about the experience in it’s entirety. It also may help another woman along the way. I had have a plan. I’ve never intended to wear wigs. They […]
Chemo Round #2
Friday was Chemo Round 2. Unlike last time I didn’t have all day to sit around and fret about it. This time I had to get up early to be there by 7:30 a.m.. We got situated and in walks a nurse who says, “Hi! I’m Jo and I’m the meanest nurse here.” I […]
You look so great!
If I had a dollar for every time someone told me I look great I could probably pay for my cancer treatment without insurance. Ok, not that many times, but you get the picture. On a daily basis someone asks me how I am. My typical response is, “I’m good, but I’m tired.” It’s pretty […]
Dead Hair Pool
One guarantee from this chemo thing is that I’m going to lose my hair. The question is when. To make it a little more fun than just dying my hair rainbow colors I’ve decided to start a pool. Here’s how this will work: My first chemo date was May 26. You pick a date […]
The front side of fear
I really am tired of writing posts that seem sad, but I’m trying to share some of the hidden realities of this whole journey. However, this week has been a bit rough. Monday was fantastic! It was the first day in weeks that I felt like myself. I spent the majority of the day in […]
Hair… it goes
Sometimes you sit and stare at a screen and wonder where to start. That is me. I am there. Here goes. Yesterday was my appointment with the oncologist. It felt like the appointment was so far away while waiting for it. On Sunday I told myself only a few more days. I can do a […]
The cursed expanders
Every post-mastectomy patient complains, bemoans and generally despises the tissue expanders. I am in that class of ladies. The thought of having to leave these cursed things in for a year is enough to throw me into the pit of despair. I continually remind myself that this is only temporary. Try telling that to my […]
3 weeks post surgery
Yesterday marked the 3 week mark. It doesn’t seem like it’s been that long. I mark my days by how much longer until I have to go to sleep. I dread sleep, or rather bedtime. Laying down in my bed used to be one of my favorite things in the world. Now it is filled […]
Unicorns and Rainbows
On the 4th of July we drove out to my cousin Amber’s* fireworks stand. There is nothing better for the guys than to get the family special on the day when they can “legally” blow shit up. While we were there she threw in a large sword thing. Think Xena Warrior Princess meets giant ass […]