Maybe it’s the sunshine that’s finally making an appearance or the severe boredom that I’ve endured the past 4 weeks, but something’s go to give. I’ve been trying to figure out what to do with this blog. Why do I keep writing it? Is it for me, is it for the few readers I have left?
There isn’t much going on in our lives that warrants sharing. Yes, I had surgery. It has improved my life. I think more than anything I’m ready to start living my life.
I realized something before and after the surgery. Before hand I spent time preparing by reading an online forum for hysterectomy support. It was helpful to read success stories and advice from women who’d been there done that. I did the same thing while we were adopting Oleg (to a point of obsession with that one). Afterwards I participated less. I also noticed one thing… forums are full of people with bad experiences. I know now that is a big fat duh.
People spend so much time trying to find other people who have also had bad experiences. They have this need to connect with others. I’ve even noticed that with some blogs. Some of the writers I followed through their adoptions journeys continue to write because they continue to have issues after their children have come home. There are some that have moved through the trials and have moved on to full on mommyblogger status. In any case that leaves me in an awkward place.
What is this blog? Why do I write it? Who are my readers? I won’t say that we don’t have our issues here. We do. Oh we do buddy. They aren’t issues we want to air publicly. I don’t want to offend anyone and some of them cross my line of share and don’t share. That leaves me in the mommyblogger category.
I know my few readers like hearing my stories or seeing how big the child is getting. I’m not saying that this is the end of Life of Elle. I can’t give it up. Besides, I blatantly exploit this blog to force you to buy candy once a year. However, I’m going to focus on a different project I’ve been working on for nearly 4 years now.
I write a gardening blog. Did you know that? I bet you didn’t. Well I do. It’s called Sprouting Off. I really enjoy it too. I’m going to try to focus on that blog in the immediate future. (Secretly I’m hoping to become famous from a blog like Pioneer Woman did.) Just kidding… no really I could totally have a show on HGTV. So please become a reader of that blog. I promise to make you a better gardener.