A rough day

Today I did one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. ?Pretty much second only to losing Alexander. ?I had to make the choice to put my sweet kitty to sleep.

By myself.

You see… Derek is out of town. ?He won’t be home until tomorrow night and odds were kitty wouldn’t make it that long. ?When I woke up this morning she wasn’t walking, force feeding her wasn’t helping and her face and head started swelling. ?I took her to the vet before work and they said they would look after her. ?Later in the afternoon I spoke with the vet and she said that at this point no amount of diagnostics and treatment were going to help her. ?She was done.

I was able to take time from work to drive back to the vet’s office to say goodbye. ?She was miserable. ?I held her and told her it was going to be ?ok and then the vet allowed me to hold her until she fell asleep. ?They took her away to euthanize her. ?I didn’t want to be there for that. ?I opted for a communal cremation and they dispose of the ashes in Puget Sound, one of my favorite places on Earth.

I left the vet’s office feeling like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. ?I ran some errands for the store and it just so happened that there was a liquor store in the same strip mall as the two other stores I had to go to. ?I stopped in for a bottle of gin.

My boss is so awesome that he had a drink with me this afternoon.


So here’s to you Kitty, Keeska, Kiki, Titi, Fat Kitty, Jelly Belly, Smelly Belly, Isi girl, Kitty Girl, Baby Girl…Isis.

18 Comment

  1. Wendy says: Reply

    I am so sorry.

  2. bethee says: Reply

    I’m on the cusp of having to make the same decision. I’m so sorry, there are no words.

  3. mom says: Reply

    You made the right decision and I’m sorry that it hurts so much. Hugs

    Don’t cry because it’s over, Smile because it happened.
    -Dr. Seuss

  4. typelittlea says: Reply

    Sorry Lisa, it is really hard to let them go.

  5. So sorry… its really hard to find words … here’s another cyberhug.

  6. Aunt Jan says: Reply

    Oh Missy, I am so sorry. I know how hard that is to do. We had to do it for Rascal last year and I STILL miss that cat. How old was Isis? I know you two had had him a looooong time. Sending you many cyber hugs. Love Aunt Jan

  7. Elle says: Reply

    She would have turned 14 on August 17th (our 14 year wedding anniversary). Julius, our male cat, turned 15 this past spring.

  8. lauri says: Reply

    crying over the loss of your kitty… seriously… my cats are like my children

    so sorry for your loss

  9. alicia says: Reply

    We will all miss lovely kitty … 🙁

  10. Elaine says: Reply

    Have had to do that way more times than I like to think about and know that it isn’t easy. I know you will miss her.

  11. Ronda says: Reply

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I know you’ll really miss her and always remember the joy she gave you.


  12. This sucks – no other way to say it. Hugs!

  13. kristin says: Reply

    So sorry! We lost our dog this year too. He is still missed. Cyber hug!!!!

  14. Willow says: Reply


  15. So sorry.

  16. Andrea says: Reply

    I am so sorry.

    We lost our kitten just before Christmas; it hurts like hell, and it feels so wrong.


  17. Tricia says: Reply

    So tough. I can’t imagine. My Yoshi is turning 11 this month. Hugs! 🙁

  18. Kim says: Reply

    Elle, I am so sorry…. it just sucks no matter how you look at it. Big hugs and one more drink…

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