I feel the need to take a moment to explain a little bit about my depression.? I’ve mentioned before what I have is called Seasonal Affective Disorder.? It is an extremely treatable form of depression (if you live somewhere like Arizona).? Sadly (or not so sadly) I don’t live in Arizona.? I live in Washington.? State.? As in the land of perpetual rain.? And damp.? And cold.? We have 8ish months of crappy weather and 2 months of somewhat decent weather.? And 2 weeks (if we’re lucky) of downright live without pants hot.? We are also in the northern part of the country where (in the summer) we get about 16 hours of sunlight a day and consequently (in the winter) 16 hours of darkness.? If you will also recall I don’t do well with excessive sunlight.? Odd, since sunlight is the “cure” for SAD.
The majority of my readers are not from Washington so you have no clue as to what the current weather patterns have been like around here.? Essentially we have just started Summer.? As in yesterday.? When the official start of summer happened.? It has been cold, wet and downright unpleasant around here.? I should have a garden full of snap peas and my dahlia’s should be at least 2′ high by now.? I have nothing.
So to recap that first part rain+lack of sunlight+summer abruptly starting=someone turning on the light switch for 16 hours straight and screwing me all kinds of up.
I was talking to the trusty husband about how people get so concerned when I write about depression.? He said, “what they don’t understand is that it is 10 times better than it used to be.”
He is spot on.? If I look back at what my life was like one year ago… well, it wasn’t pretty.? It was almost a year ago that I started acupuncture treatments.? It has been a long year and the treatments have gone well.? About 5 months ago the acupuncturist said she felt that we had a good handle on my emotional issues and that we could move on to other things.? She was right.? I only have about 1 bad day a month.? Considering it used to be only one good week a month things have improved.? I consider it a victory.
I write about my depression because I want people to know that it still effects me.? It likely always will, but I have a handle on things that I’m comfortable with.