I have come to realize that my life it very dependent on the multitude of vitamins I take each day.? and the sun.? Oh yes, the sun.? We haven’t seen the sun around these parts in more than 30 minute increments in months.? I also haven’t taken my vitamins in about the same amount of time.? I am now beginning to remember why I went to the acupuncturist for the first time back in June 2007.
At this moment I very much dislike myself and much of everything around me.? So much so that I am really trying to figure out if the $15 in my wallet is enough to refinish my kitchen cabinets.
You see, when I get super depressed my first thought is to change something.? In reality I should change something about myself.? Get away from my computer, go for a walk, work in the yard.? Anything.? In my mind I want instant gratification so I want to do physically change something.? Why do you think we paint a room every January?
I’ve run out of rooms to paint so the next possible solution is to work on the kitchen.? I was going to replace the cabinets.? I did the math and figured I didn’t have enough money to do that.? Refinishing the cabinets would be cheaper.? However, somewhere deep down inside I know that this will be more work than I’m willing to put forth.? So there is still a little spark of logical left in me.? Of course, that spark is what drives me to shower every day.
Here is how kitchen redo would play out:
Day 1: Elle goes to mega home improvement store to purchase paint and lacquer stripping materials (our cabinet doors have 1 layer of paint on them and the bases have 1 layer of lacquer and 2 layers of paint).? She then removes all of the dishes from the cabinets, the cabinet doors and tapes up the walls.? *Then it’s dinner time and she’s too exhausted to make dinner.? We either a) go out for dinner, which will cost more money or b) the trusty husband makes dinner and I eat chicken and rice for the second night in a row.
Day 2: Elle opens the garage door only to remember that the garage is packed full of crap and she can’t move.? She then spends the rest of the day cleaning out the garage.? Return to *.
Day 3: At some point during the previous day Elle got distracted by something in the garage and decided to start a new project.? The kitchen cabinets have no doors, there are dishes on every vertical surface? and an untouched bag from mega home improvement store with refinishing supplies.? Day 3 will repeat infinitely.
Now part of me wants to say “oh that won’t happen this time.”? And then my husband reaches through the computer screen and bitch slaps me.