Same ol’ chemo drug, different round.
I keep telling myself, “only one more to go.” The nurse warned me that my side effects would be cumulative as Taxol went on. I believed her. I thought my most major side effect would be fatigue. Oh darn, more naps. There was this glossed over, something about pain, shouldn’t be too bad.
CUMULATIVE!
Fortunately the pain subsides somewhere around day 5 of each round. However the evening of day 3 going into day 4 sucks. Each round my goal is to avoid the heavy pain killers. I just can’t do it.
My intention is not to give updates that spend the whole time whining about how terrible all of this is. It’s just part of what life is like right now. At the end of the last round I was feeling great! I think I did some stuff outside. I’ve been preparing all of my classes. Wholly unremarkable really.
In other life news…
I start back to work on the 24th. A full day of meetings. Fun times.
The boy has started a new activity. He joined the Civil Air Patrol. This leaves some people scratching their heads. I’m not exactly known as being the most patriotic of American souls. However, I have a 12 year old who desperately wants to learn how to fly and a bank account that cannot accommodate such a request. Thus, we learned about CAP. It is an auxillary arm of the Air Force, but think of it like Boy Scouts with air planes. The cadets study aerospace and leadership, but also have a military element. Their uniforms are ABUs or dress blues. There is a chain of command. They march, salute and muster. It is all very formal.
The ultimate goal out of joining CAP was to learn how to fly. On the mom and dad love this side of things, there is leadership training and physical fitness goals included. All three of us are convinced that this is something that will be very good for the boy.
Yes, I’m aware his sleeves are rolled incorrectly. A senior member taught him how to do it correctly.
My nephew is doing this, too. He has done well, got to fly a plane already! And he loves it.
He looks great! Tell him hi for us and give him hugs from us. You are not whining you big turd! It hurts, and telling someone how much it sucks is not whining! It will hurt, and it will hurt in places like your memory for a lot of years to come. That doesn’t make you a whiner. That make you human, and I know you have a superhero cape that you wear everyday because it runs in our family (I have one too), sometimes… however, the cape must come off and you must deal with mortal feelings (eww), and sickness (bleck),… and shit. I don’t know why we can’t wear our fing cape all the time, it would make life so much easier. I digress. Anyhoo… Almost done. Have fun in your classes and even in those boring meetings!!
Air force is where all the smartest kids go! Good for you Oleg. Hang in there, Lisa, you are well-loved by many. I think your first day back should have nap-time smack dab in the middle!
Sending big love and big props.to the boy for being in CAP! Xoxo
I pray for you daily that God will see you through this. As for the picture of the boy, wow! He looks so grown up and happy. I wish I could come out there to see you all. Maybe someday. Love Aunt Jan
As your mama, there is not a moment that passes that I’m no worrying about you. Watching Aunt Pam go thru it… gut wrenching. My kiddo? Nightmare! You can’t gloss over the ugliest of treatments and make them pretty. Use your voice. It is your tool, your release. One more dose of this crap and it will be behind you. Love you! ?
You got this! And way to go O! I hope it’s everything he’s expecting it to be!
You got this Cuz’!!!!
You are allowed to whine, curse, cry or nap! Whatever you choose, your family is always behind you…
There is a light at the end of the tunnel, as this is going to be done soon. A lot of prayers are going out to help you get there!
Stay strong, we all luv’ ya’!!!